So our checkinf account is over drawn again. We have a few bills that would be really nice to pay but won't be able to this week. And I don't even care. The car is paid off and I have a job. We'll get caught up soon enough. I figure we will struggle like this for several more years if not the rest of our lives. It may change rapidly once the boy start school full time. My wife can work a regular job and the extra money will make our lives simpler. I would rather her work part-time and have a daytime hobby though. Or get a job at a lingere store. She always seems to take on the persona of her job. I am always worried that she will start working at some womans empowerment group or some shit like that. Talk about a nightmare!
Anyways, things are decent right now. It's that time of year where things seem to slow down a little. Our summer has pretty much sucked. But maybe the holidays will be a little better.
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
So I'm being replaced at work. The company feels I should be confident and comfortable with the change. They say 'it's good for the company to move me to Special Projects Manager'. I guess in some ways I could see it as advancment. But I don't. I have spent the last 10 years devoting my life to network administration. I built this corporate network from nothing. And without asking what I thought, I have to hand it over to someone else.
The reality is, I just don't trust my employer to take care of me. I see this as a very bad omen. Kind of a game they like to play. It's a control issue. By removing my control over their core systems, I lose all edge I may have had in negotiating my future.
Oh well I guess. Things could be worse. And I'm sure at times they will be. I am racing in a national event this weekend. I have much bigger things to be thinking about. My job has sucked for years anyways. I guess I really shouldn't care. But somehow I am struggling with this.
Only time will tell how this all turns out. But I won't let things get to me. And no one will win or lose here. I have my family, and that is all I really need anyways.
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The reality is, I just don't trust my employer to take care of me. I see this as a very bad omen. Kind of a game they like to play. It's a control issue. By removing my control over their core systems, I lose all edge I may have had in negotiating my future.
Oh well I guess. Things could be worse. And I'm sure at times they will be. I am racing in a national event this weekend. I have much bigger things to be thinking about. My job has sucked for years anyways. I guess I really shouldn't care. But somehow I am struggling with this.
Only time will tell how this all turns out. But I won't let things get to me. And no one will win or lose here. I have my family, and that is all I really need anyways.
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