VirtuaGirl2, Strippers on your desktop. Goodies.

Thank God for the internet!



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Provident Bank fucking sucks!!!!! Banks in general suck. They are only out to make money, screw people and find ways to fuck up peoples lives. I am so sick of banks.

Banks take out deposits, the enter in withdrawls. In that order. That way if something bounces they get their money AND the fees immediatly. Then quickly point out you made a purchase prior to giving them the money. It's a scam. A fucking scam and they are pros.


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It's a sad world. Our justice system is so fucked! I cannot go into depth today. But trust me, it's fucked and we actually fight for it. It all amazes me.



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Apraxia Articles Index - Speech Therapy, Evaluation, Insurance, Education, and Other Topics

I can't even write anything about this site. It's been a long month.

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Mr Crumley put it even better, he said:

"Son," he said without preamble, "never trust a man who doesn't drink because he's probably a self-righteous sort, a man who thinks he knows right from wrong all the time. Some of them are good men, but in the name of goodness, they cause most of the suffering in the world. They're the judges, the meddlers. And, son, never trust a man who drinks but refuses to get drunk. They're usually afraid of something deep down inside, either that they're a coward or a fool or mean and violent. You can't trust a man who's afraid of himself. But sometimes, son, you can trust a man who occasionally kneels before a toilet. The chances are that he is learning something about humility and his natural human foolishness, about how to survive himself. It's damned hard for a man to take himself too seriously when he's heaving his guts into a dirty toilet bowl."

I nearly cried when I read this.
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My attitude sucks this month. Work has destroyed my good mood lately. I am trying to recover and get my mind back into things, but I am struggling.

Well it's another day in paradise. I realized today that I have found the meca of anonymity.

I manage a major computer network for a mid sized company. My job directly effects job production. Yet I have no business cards. Short term? That's not my call. I guess after 7.25 years on the job you would think at some point they would consider me long term. Guess not.

I also have to note that everyone knows my job better than I. For years I have struggled with the the mis-conception that you can walk up to any switch and throw it. "Does the light come on or go off? Or did that switch control someones life support? I guess we'll find out!" Me? Nope, that's the attitude of all the folks who think they know my job better than I.

I stopped questioning other peoples jobs years ago. Especially in my own field. I would feel sorry for anyone who tried to come in and learn all my half-assed, short changed, cheap, turkey-shoot, ugly, fucked up and basiclly thrown together projects. I am given rolls of pennies for a budget. Then asked to borrow them back for chips. It's sick and I am sick of it.

Sometimes I ask myself "what the fuck am I doing?" Why am I such a glutton for pain? Is it the money? No way. I'm really not a greedy person. Is it the power? No way, I have become a loner. I am a power-less manager. I am in charge of people only when they screw up or the boss needs someone to point the finger at. Do co-workers like me? Who cares! They don't take the time to ask if I like them. And for the most part our company frowns on making freinds with A N Y O N E, especially co-workers. That way they can fuck over or screw anyone they like anytime they want and no one else gets hurt in the mix. I have seen it first hand.

Enough bitching for today. I am struggling to get motivated.


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Let's all hope this week is better than the last. So far it hasn't started out that way. To much shit is broken on Mondays. I think the phone company likes to screw with us [work] when we don't pay our bill on time. Oh well, fuck em. I just do what I can.

Have I mentioned I have a beautiful and sexy wife today? Or have I told you about my son? Both make my world revolve. I looked in on them for a moment when they were sleeping today. I could have crawled up next to my son and laid there all day. Just so when he woke up we could pay together. And at the same time I wanted to walk up and kiss my wife's entire body and tell her how beautiful she is. I hate leaving them to go to work. That's life I guess.

I rode all day yesterday. I think I have found two guys who I should have been freinds with years ago. They make an attempt at throwing freindship back my way. And I appreciate that. For years I have always been the dominate freind. It's nice to have someone call or email me just to say 'hello' or ask a question that could have waited but didn't have to. I wish my wife could discover that. Her freinds suck, and I really don't care if they ever know I feel this way. She is a wonderful woman with a great smile and funny persona. Her freinds have shit on her for years.

I guess that's enough for today. I am gonna get back to work. In the mood I'm in today I'll have to stop and look at a couple quad sites, some porn and probably look at some lingirie sites to day dream about what I would love to see the wife in (but will probably never get to). I am also getting them a surprise today for our vacation. I want to take my son on a helicopter ride. So I have found a charter service to take the three of us up for an hour or so. I think he'll love it. I may also have a pontoon boat rented for a day on Lake Mead. But I am waiting to see if it's available.


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People are so fucking cheap! Who ever teaches their children that you do not have to tip at an open bar is an asshole. Don't you realize that the person serving the drinks is just trying to make a lousy living too? I got a news flash for all you cheap fuckers: bartenders are people to! And although you may think you are higher on lifes food chain you are always one step behind the man who can cut you off!!!

I worked my ass off tonight. I was told two weeks ago that I would be 'taken care of'. What did ti get me? A $30 tip at the end of the night. A whole $6 extra per hour, WHOOOPIE!!! Six bucks? What the fuck? I would have had more fun playing with my son. Sure, sure you might say that with my hourly wage plus tips I actually made $40 an hour. But it's that point. For each hour worked I played bartender, parent, bouncer, flirted with old ugly woman, sucked up to bitchy girls who thought they were all that in ugly fucking dresses and worst of all delt with drunks.

Hey cheap asses of the world. My only advie to you is wake up and realize I am gonna put my dick in your glass the first chance I get. You fucking jerk. And then I'm gonna spit in your wifes glass and probably use cheap booze to boot.

What a week.



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CNN.com - Car crashes after woman gives birth in back seat - Apr 15, 2004


Another sad child brought into the world. It would be interesting to know all the facts behind stories like this.


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OMFG, I am so glad it's Friday! I am going riding tonight and really going to put some throttle behind my jumps. I need to express some wasted anger and sexual frustration. It's been a long week.

I am ready for a vacation. 48 days and counting. I plan on having a relaxing and awsome time. My wife, son and I are going to live it up for seven days. Nothing to outlandish and no rules! Fuck this town and the people who I can't stand in it.

Upon return I dispose of some uneeded headaches. Like out lead contamined house. Fuck that place.

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Our word today is 'NEPOTISM'

nep·o·tism ( P ) Pronunciation Key (np-tzm)
n.
Favoritism shown or patronage granted to relatives, as in business.

Example: The bosses sister who works part time, is a slob in the art of orginization and never seems to have her own work done is now 'reviewing' all other departments in the company (that she knows little about) to see if she can assist in creating a more 'efficient' orginization. All of this on the eve of the boss offering $125-$250 in cash for offering money saving ideas.

I only wish I had the time in my work load to come up with that idea.

Oh well, it's only money. Why not keep it in the family?


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OK, it's been a couple weeks since I really bitched so here it goes:

Who invented 'micro-managing'? Why do people with money think they are smarter than the rest of the world? What makes one employees faults worse than another? Why is guilt such a part of the working place? Why don't people just quit really shitty jobs? Why are people conservative? What makes sex so dirty? Are drugs and alchohal bad or are people just stupid and weak? Why do spammers send so much trash? If they have to spell half the words wrong in order to get their message past antivirus and antispam software, what makes them think people want to read thier garbage in the first place? Is it really that hard to buy Viagra, Celebrex or Lavitra these days?

And my biggest bitch of the day: why is life so frustrating? What happened to my 20s when everyone told me to grow up and mature? Now that I am in my 30s I resent those people. I was happy and care free in my 20s. I was reckless but free from worries. Why was that so wrong? I will not fake happiness around my son. He is my only 'true' happiness these days. He is my world, my life and my only concern. I would give up everything I own to spend time with him. And he will have all he ever wanted as ling as he learns all that he needs to about respect, love and thankfulness.

OK, enough venting for this morning. I must head back to my thankless, mediocore paying IT job. Am I thankful to have a job? "FUCK NO!", I could have a job anytime I need one. It may not be in computers, it may not make much money. But I would have a job. And most of all I could keep my self-respect. And only give my respect to those who deserve it, not my bosses who feel I 'owe' them respect based on a paycheck each week. Money is not my world, and only a fool lets it be.



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